I HAVE NOT BEEN THIS HAPPY IN A VERY LONG TIME.
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
brilliance.
the book i'm currently reading, Life of Pi, is both amazing and insightful.
i was skeptical of this book at first, but it's come to be one of my favorites.
the main character, a 16 year old boy named Pi Patel, loves God with his whole heart.
he practices not only Christianity, but also Hinduism and Islam.
when he and his family decide to migrate to Canada from their home in India, the boat sinks and Pi is left on a lifeboat in a very difficult situation.
let's just say, it involves a 500 lb. Bengal tiger.
amidst all of the tragedies Pi faces, he remains focused on God, and never loses hope.
i wanted to share a few excerpts from the book with you.
"It was my first clue that atheists are my brothers and sisters of a different faith, and every word they speak speaks of faith. Like me, they go as far as the legs of reason will carry them- and they leap.
I'll be honest about it. It is not atheists who get stuck in my craw, but agnostics. Doubt is useful for a while. We must all pass through the garden of Gethsemane. If Christ played with doubt, so must we. If Christ spent an anguished night in prayer, if he burst out from the cross, "my GOD, my GOD, why have you forsaken me?"then surely we are also permitted to doubt. But we must move on. To chose doubt as a philosophy of life is akin to choosing immobility as a means of transportation."
"Sometimes my heart was sinking so fast with anger, desolation and weariness, I was afraid it would sink to the very bottom of the Pacific and I would not be able to lift it back up.
At such moments i tried to elevate myself. I would touch the turban I had made with the remnants of my shirt and I would say aloud, "THIS IS GOD'S HAT!"
i would pat my pants and say aloud, "THIS IS GOD'S ATTIRE!"
i would point to the lifeboat and say aloud, "THIS IS GOD'S ARK!"
i would spread my hands wide and say aloud, "THESE ARE GOD'S WIDE ACRES!"
And in this way I would remind myself of creation and of my place in it...
But God's hat was always unravelling.
God's pants were falling apart.
God's ark was a jail.
God's wide acres were slowly killing me.
despair was a heavy blackness that let no light in or out. It was a hell beyond expression. I thank God it always passed. A school of fish appeared around the net or a knot cried to be reknotted. Or I thought of my family, of how they were spared this terrible agony. The blackness would stir and eventually would go away, and God would remain, a shining point of light in my heart.
I would go on loving."
i was skeptical of this book at first, but it's come to be one of my favorites.
the main character, a 16 year old boy named Pi Patel, loves God with his whole heart.
he practices not only Christianity, but also Hinduism and Islam.
when he and his family decide to migrate to Canada from their home in India, the boat sinks and Pi is left on a lifeboat in a very difficult situation.
let's just say, it involves a 500 lb. Bengal tiger.
amidst all of the tragedies Pi faces, he remains focused on God, and never loses hope.
i wanted to share a few excerpts from the book with you.
"It was my first clue that atheists are my brothers and sisters of a different faith, and every word they speak speaks of faith. Like me, they go as far as the legs of reason will carry them- and they leap.
I'll be honest about it. It is not atheists who get stuck in my craw, but agnostics. Doubt is useful for a while. We must all pass through the garden of Gethsemane. If Christ played with doubt, so must we. If Christ spent an anguished night in prayer, if he burst out from the cross, "my GOD, my GOD, why have you forsaken me?"then surely we are also permitted to doubt. But we must move on. To chose doubt as a philosophy of life is akin to choosing immobility as a means of transportation."
"Sometimes my heart was sinking so fast with anger, desolation and weariness, I was afraid it would sink to the very bottom of the Pacific and I would not be able to lift it back up.
At such moments i tried to elevate myself. I would touch the turban I had made with the remnants of my shirt and I would say aloud, "THIS IS GOD'S HAT!"
i would pat my pants and say aloud, "THIS IS GOD'S ATTIRE!"
i would point to the lifeboat and say aloud, "THIS IS GOD'S ARK!"
i would spread my hands wide and say aloud, "THESE ARE GOD'S WIDE ACRES!"
And in this way I would remind myself of creation and of my place in it...
But God's hat was always unravelling.
God's pants were falling apart.
God's ark was a jail.
God's wide acres were slowly killing me.
despair was a heavy blackness that let no light in or out. It was a hell beyond expression. I thank God it always passed. A school of fish appeared around the net or a knot cried to be reknotted. Or I thought of my family, of how they were spared this terrible agony. The blackness would stir and eventually would go away, and God would remain, a shining point of light in my heart.
I would go on loving."
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Saturday, February 9, 2008
forgiveness&my life.
we all make mistakes. some of us make bigger ones than others...but we all mess up. it's a part of life. and when we do, we end up hurting several people along the way. and it's normally the ones that mean the most to you. how terrible of a feeling is that? to live with that gut wreching emotion all day. and you can't escape it, because you can't ever escape yourself. your mind. your thinking process. it's especially difficult when those you hurt forgive you, and you know you don't deserve it. but i suppose that's what life's about. learning to forgive one another, and live in harmony. choosing love over spite, and anger. for some of us, it's hard to forgive when someone does you wrong. and for others, it comes natural. and as for those people...i commend you.
anyway.
- i need a new job. i seriously dread going to that god forsaken store every day.
- i have been working out alot lately, and i've come to enjoy exercising.
- that's kind of scary.
- it's such a beautiful day outside. i love the warm weather.
- my baby comes home in 15 days.
- i'm more thrilled than you will ever know!
- i need a puppy.
- and when i get one, his name will be Gus Gus. : ]
- i can't wait to get out of the dorms and get my own place.
- seesh.
- i am reading an amazing book, Life Of Pi.
- if you've read it, let me know what you thought of it, and if you haven't, READ IT!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
wonderwall.
Today was gonna be the day-
But they'll never throw it back to you.
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do .
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do ,
About you now .
And all the roads that lead to you were winding.
And all the lights that light the way are blinding.
There are many things that I would like to say to you,
I don't know how.
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me...
And after all,
You're my wonderwall.
[Ryan Adams' rendition of the Oasis song, "Wonderwall" is lovely. check it out. the words and the music are touching.]
But they'll never throw it back to you.
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do .
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do ,
About you now .
And all the roads that lead to you were winding.
And all the lights that light the way are blinding.
There are many things that I would like to say to you,
I don't know how.
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me...
And after all,
You're my wonderwall.
[Ryan Adams' rendition of the Oasis song, "Wonderwall" is lovely. check it out. the words and the music are touching.]
Friday, January 11, 2008
bestest friend.
this boy is the love of my life, and i can't wait until he comes home!
that's all. : )
Thursday, January 3, 2008
home of the brave.
as the 2008 presidential election nears, i've been doing some research on all of the candidates. and i must admit, out of 15 runners, none of them really catch my interest. there are several who's political standpoints i agree on, however, how they portray themselves throughout the media is a little off. there are some who i wouldn't be heartbroken if they fell off of a cliff. there are some who have excellent ideas for this country. i was talking to my sister about it, and she is not even sure she will vote this year. she backs this up by saying that people vote ignorantly by voting for all the wrong reasons. some will vote for Hilary Clinton, simply because of her views on the war in iraq (which i must say, don't sound half bad) without taking a look about what else she is about. promoting abortions so that it is the social "norm" in america. crazy. we both agreed that most american's aren't well informed about the social and politcal policies today. do we really want those american's standing in line outside the polls? do we want those american's deciding our future? it's all a popularity contest. do you know how many people will vote for Obama, simply because Oprah is his "campaigner?" i believe it is my right as an american to vote. and i'm very proud of that right; and i will, on election day, cast my vote on who i think would make the best leader for this country. however, we all must really keep in mind why we vote. do we vote for the leader who is most popular? what about the leader who wants to end the war immeadiately? will we vote out of ignorance?
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