oh, life.

as of lately, i have been going through a very difficult time in my life. i've lost something that's been a part of me for a really long time....and i haven't known really how to cope with my loss.

however, i have had a break through. i can't really change what is happening, no matter how much i think that i can. it's out of my hands. and sitting around and feeling sorry for myself is helping how? exactly. it's not. it only makes things worse. therefore, i have come to the conclusion that i am going to be positive. i don't know what the future has in store for me. only time will tell. time is what is going to heal me. that, and my faith. my hope. i still hurt. i don't know if that will really ever go away....but i'm going to be ok. my heart is going to be ok. it has to be. there is no other option. i have no other choice but to keep living. keep striving through every day. no matter how hard, i can handle it. these past few years have made me a strong person, and i will continue to be strong. nothing will break me.

this felt good.
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i love you all.
thank you to those of you who are helping me get through this.
i don't know what i would do without you, seriously.